I AM FINALLY BACK :)

i AM BACK! School has resumed this week! Thanks for supporting this little deserted place of mine! i promise i will be back with more updates. Meanwhile, many things have happened. i had my share of fun with my 4 month long hols n am glad that i have met all my lovelies that i have really missed alot alot alot.

I attended many 21st bday parties n still have MANY MANY MANY MORE to come. Ber.fairy, pq, my beloved and huey shyan's 21st were both very enjoyable n i just can't say how touched i am. u think i'm EMO? haha. Oh well, to put it simply, it's the joy to see how my beloved frens had blossomed n how much we treasure this together. We will grow grey together...as everything sags (n i mean everything :P), with our walking sticks and grandchildren in future, i know that these are the people that will keep me going. :)

In the month of March, i already have 4 21st bdays to attend. As honoured as i am, 21st bdays seemed to become a routine gradually. Or i would say, a weekly punctuation. haha. However, i will still live up to my 'social butterfly' status huh. The only difference is that i really go there just to have my share of fun...not to bridge any dose of superficial relationship.

Alrite...in order to account for my MIA from here... Actually, i have a surprise IN for u guys. okie, its not a surprise anymore since some of u are already aware of this. My partner n i have lauched this online shopping site at

chanelally.livejournal.com

Please do support it! Or even pass the word around alrite. Post it on ur blog, facebook, friendster or even msn! i'l be so so so glad n grateful for ur help. :) u can link it up or even add us as a friend if u r a livejournal user. Even if u are not purhcasing anything, do join our mailing list for immediate updates too!

Trust me, for this debut collection, we put in months of hardwork, brain juice and research. It's not the best that we can do, because it will only continue to get better as the next few collections progresses! heeee. We brought in limited pieces...so hopefully anyone of u guys who r interested can drop by or simply sms me k! muackz!

Anyway, with regards to my personal life, which some of u may be interested about... (no?) haha.. i am still a free bird(at least thats what i think haha). Maybe it's just me who is not ready to be tied down in some way. or MAYBE i am really sceptical about love. haha. I think true love dun exist BUT it still lies in ur own definition of it. Anyhow, i still think that theres always someone better. THats the time when i will stop running n realise its maybe YOU. Some commented about my high expectations (whats new?) haha. i wun deny this, but u can send me a drop dead gorgeous David Beckham but i may still choose Jude Law over him. Although i am kinda superficial (who isnt??), i still think that charsima is what that hits the jackpot, at least for ME.

hmn...theres no hurry to find a partner although the 'peer pressure' is on. Yes? i am just a single-entity that is so so so afraid so fall head over heels. i dun know why. i am just unable to put my guard down (now, u can't believe whos talking). Its not as if theres no one in my life now that is not special enough but each time something just seems to be lacking. Most of the time, things progress a lil too fast that makes me think twice again. Not that i am extremely self-confident, but at times i wonder if the opposite party is just attracted to who i APPEAR to be, or who i really AM. In fact, i guess this is what i am most particular about. Everyone in this world IS superficial to some extent. NO, this is not a sweeping statement. (u r welcome to provide stand if u think otherwise). i dun believe that i can make someone have the THING going for me after officially knowing me for only 3 - 4 days despite the fact that we know of each other's existence for quite a while. i really dun. Someone say, it isn't impossible. Oh perhaps, this is just the inferior side of me. i think i just cant help it but think too much all the time.

With regards to the family...all i can say is the apple always look polished n red but its probably already half rotten.
u figure it out urself. sometimes i feel so depressed that i wallow in self-pity without realising that i am actually already a very fortunate girl who gets almost anything she wants. just say it, n i will get it. But still, tell me what is happiness? is it all a facade? if only it could be bought rite?

i am just really encouraged with this saying, "think of what u already have n not what u missed"

alrite..emo thing aside, i am gonna celebrate my 21st in 3 mths plus time. gotta get the plans moving cos it falls durng the school holiday period. Anyway, i am thinking of a theme party! every reader here is OF COS invited. haha.

p.s. Although they say it's up to u to choose ur happiness, i say real happiness is for the simplest people. And that, i call it a blessing in disguise. Knowing less in life, might just do some good.

say bye to my thursday pinks.