Speechless
In life... there are lots of things that we find it hard to put it into words or to even express your feelings to a particular person. In fact... the truth is that u simply do not have the courage to do so.
At times, I wonder if it's possible for u to like or fall in love with 2 parties at the same time? Yes... it does happen on TV shows... but I have realised that it can also happen in real life. Sounds abit absurd isn't it? However... it can be true.When one's placed into a disconnected love triangle... it will put u into a difficult position.
Whenever we refer to our feelings.. it's so hard to piece them up together. For me, I'm never decisive in such aspects. It's not very good for one to be indecisive in such areas... especially it will affect the emotions of other parties. On the other hand... the *saddening* fact is that... it actually gives another an impression that you are 'playing-hard-to-get'. As some may say... 'So far yet so near' However... the cause of such a false image, all rounds down to one's fickle mindedness and inconsistent feelings isn't it?
At times I'm surprised by my own reactions towards some of the people around me too. I wonder why would i so naturally, willing to spend time with some ppl but not with others... although they may have made the attempt or have ever took the initiative. My conclusion is probably that this person may mean more to me than the other. It's just that... that person may not know it.
Yes... I agree that to be loved is an extremely fortunate thing. However there are many fears and things one have to consider before getting into a relationship. maybe one is thinking too much... but don't we have to think ahead all the time?! Some may say... take it one step at a time... but in everything... we still have to consider the consequences and the 'price' we have to pay if things ever went wrong. In other words... it's the lack of confidence. To be loved is a fortunate thing... but I think to be able to love... is another thing that is treasured too.
In fact in life... alot of things are not said but felt or sensed. If you really love a person... not much words is needed when u guys are together. Even if it's just that person's presence... it will definitely bring joy to u or even brighten up that gloomy day of yours...
How do u define true love? I guess no one can... because it's so subjective. To some ppl... true love is when u have found someone rich enough that can provide for ur material needs.. to some others... it's simply just enjoying each other's presence... having each other in the heart and mind all the time. Some may think that true love is by having attention from another while others may just define true love as a 'task' that every normal human being should fulfill. So what's it then?
Love is a beautiful thing... I agree~ However in real life... it's not fairy tale like and it doesn't even involve alot of fantasy I should say. It's more of a practical issue whereby 2 parties are willing to share their ups and downs together and to be able to love each other for who they are. Furthermore... not everything will come to a happy ending. It isn't like Disney cartoons whereby both the prince and princess rides into the sunset at the end of the day. It's a nice picture... but maybe less realistic. We have to come to terms that we do not live in a perfect world... and lots of things may be far from ideal. We can never get the best out of both worlds...
When faced with such a situation.. I have chose to brush it aside for a time being... cos' I've gotten my pirorities right. And I know what's the at the top of my list. Guess I will just have to listen to my heart and to put any decisions to be made in the hands of fate... As I always say... what's meant to be will always be... but what's meant not to be, u can never keep it with ya forever.
But by saying so... it doesn't mean that we have every right to take another for granted.... it just means to take things naturally. some may think that this is an excuse... To me, maybe it is... but on the other hand it can be a geninune reason too. No one can understand it even better unless u are facing the same situation...
Well... whatever it is... most importantly is to stay focus and self-discipline in the things u do or have decided to go into. if u have decided to go into something... we should be very sure that we are able to give it our unconditional care and concern and to treasure it whole heartedly bah... =)
*The best kind of companion is the kind you can sit on a porch swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.*
