I cried today... for the first time after so long... oh my... like wth... i am an official emotional bit*h or whatever. haiz... well, today's my last day with dfs, cos my extended contract have ended and they are only employiong permanent full-timers which i am unable to commit in. yup. argh. this is horrible. i tot i could take it well. i tot i was strong. but still... i couldn't cross my own sentimental barriers. afterall... i am just a human being. a pretty emotional one as u all shld know. although only 2 months plus 3 at dfs... i have built a relatively good repore with all the colleagues there.. despite all the rumours n scandals about love triangles n guys giving me sales cos they have somethg for me... like( sometimes u feel like asking those ppl(the minority or jealous eyes) to shut the fuck up). sorry if i sound rude.. yah. Basically my sales are based on my v.own capability. my consicence is clear n i dun give a damn to those idiots or whatever. Anyway, the rest or most of them are lovely ppl n are like an external parent to me.. or at least a guider that helped me to build my stepping stone into the working force n hopefully a brighter future. yeah. Well, apparently i miss auntie jenny... the extremely cute auntie that always suggest for me to 'take out' my eye balls to wash n put it back whenever i felt that my eyes were itchy. haha. lamer can. ok.. n yati, sok wan, daryl , ron.. oh my god... those ppl... esp, yati... the most r-rated lady i have ever met. She keeps polluting my mind daily. haha. And all her yellow jokes about bananas n holes n whatsnot. bleah. haha. And aiming to pinch or spank my butt daily. aw... whatever. i am like the 'BUTT' of the shop. haha. it's not big k... its just perky~ haha. ok... shall stop being cheeky. Anyway, i miss Irene, my beloved motherly buddy, n Benno... an extremely brotherly n protective character... n Anne Sung, the tweety bird aunty... n suhana, my teddy bear...n Auntie Julie my supporter... haha n Babara, the feminine RSM, Helen chua, the capable RSM, Jasmine... my goody girly friend, n syed who loves disturbing me...etc. n the watch ppl at loc 243, n my dear yik chia at gucci, n the peeps at Raulph Lauren, n the workers at Wang Jiao, n the ppl who always helps us to change money at Coach, n shopping thru those prada n burberry shops... n the peeps at Levis n my sunflower park n cactus graden... aw... i love them to bits. Some of the aunties requested for a hug n a kiss sia. oh my... haha. well if that is what they wish.. i shall give it to them then, haha. Oh well... as i walked out of my shop today... i didn't turn back at all... cos i cannot stop my tears from trickling down. hah. useless me. I will be back at the airport... but it's just that i wun be working with them anymore.

Anyway, the good news is... i just got through an interview and i am soon gonna been an official cosmetics promoter for Lo'real- hong kong at the airport. I will be employed by Lo'real... n under their cosmetic products, there is also biotherm, lancome n garnier... so i will be involved in their upcoming projects. Basically.. i will still be within the restricted areas, n the dress code is just black... so i can wear anything i want. And it's still heels as usual. aw... Plus full make-up. Not sure if Lo'real will give me any of their products since i will be their spokesmen. haha. Well.. actually the pay is much better than expected n there's also commission. yeah. i can just count myself lucky bah. Initially, i went down to the agency for an interview as a customer service employee at the information counter under caas. But i realised i am not able to commit until the end of the year. So they introduced to me the cosmetics thingy. haha. well.. i may still pop by to visit my colleagues, but it will be different... I am gonna expect alot of aggressive competition for my next job... but i will fight it out yeah. haha. try me baby. well, the working shifts are similar to dfs. And i am kinda of used to the nature of the job. yeah. And they have a pretty cliche term ... Lo'real gal?! haha. whateveer la... i am gonna meet their lady boss in the airport soon. And i will start work in 2-3 weeks time cos they need it to apply my airport pass once again. ahem~ i really love the airport alot. i dun know why. Trust me... u will just get hooked to the environment. And i aspire to get my Burberry bag. haha. Well... cosmetic promoter sounds flattery, but it's somethg new that i must really pick up quickly. Guess i have to go online to check out n get to know their products better. yup... And this job is all about image n how u can convince ur customers... so i am gonna learn somethg new again. =) Hmmn...

I am having super mixed feelings. tmr is results day. the day have finally arrived. time flies. It's already March 2006. And in no time... it's the end of the year again. Time waits for no man. That's what my dad used to tell me. how true ya. haiz. But i haven't wasted my hols. This is the most MOST HAPPENING hols i ever had n made used fully of. Working, driving, clubbing, dancing, socialising... trying out so many thgs i have always wanted to do. I am glad that i didn't waste any time. And the new ppl who have walked into my life. It's amazing how 2-3 months can draw us so closely together. OH my... sometimes i am shocked by the change in myself... time really makes a big difference. i have ever since learned to open my mind n heart to many many things...

Went to eskibar with daryl n ron lastnite... oh my.. it rox to the max. But it was freezing cold! Basically -1.5 degrees. And guess what?! Fz was in a short skirt. Luckily they provided windbreakers sia. its really a good place to chill out other than the usual bangs of clubs. yup yup.

haiz... too many things are circulaing around my mind.. i just need to digest it. As long as i have enough time... that is all i ask for.


*i'll be back...