my friends =)

Hmn... as promised, I'm back asap again. hehe. Yeah... felt the sudden the need to put down my overwhelming thoughts and emotions. Well~ I read my joycey dear's and darling's blog le. And to say the truth, I share the same sentiments as them. Personally I am touched by what they said. Woo... I feel blessed that although we haven't been meeting up lately, as often as it is in the past... all of us do still treasure this friendship alot! Actually, I realised how much I missed them too. All our little sharing sessions about our 'love' life, crushes, shopping trips, pizza-making, chit-chatting at the bubble tea shop and even our singing of S.H.E songs. omg... how I wish time could turn back whereby all of us are less busy with our school and own lives.

Honestly, I expected all these to happen, especially after all of us took a different path to JC and poly to pursue our own future. Hmn...I'm feeling bad for not spending enough time with u guys. But, it seems that we can hardly find a common time to go out together. hai~ Seriously, I believe we will have more time for each other when the hols are here. And especially after the A's! At that time, it will definitely be haven. At least for joycey dear and me. Yeah! Maybe u guys do not know... but whenever i miss u guys, I do always look at the neoprints tt we once took together. Remember our trips to Bugis-Reds, just to accompany timid Fz for her haircut sessions? ahaha.. all these sweet memories yah? Well, but I believe that as time goes by, all of us has changed to some extent. Growing to be more mature and independent. u know what? I feel that this may be a good sign. cos this gives us chance to explore each other even more and to get to understand my besties better. pls remember that u are never forgotten or neglected in my life. U are AlwAys On My mInd!(S.H.E song tittle remember?) hee~~. And my wallet always carry the pics. of u guys. I really mean it yah! u all can check my wallet the next time we meet up... hee~

Hmn... basically, it's because of all these time factor and activites that are restricting the time we can spend more often. However, as the saying goes, "Absence makes the heart fonder" isn't it? Only when that person is not physically by your side, then u realised his/her importance to ya in your life. And the many times u miss the love ones around u, just shows how much they mean to u. =) And I agree with my joycey dear... we tend to be too caught up with the past and end up, we may neglect the present. And this becomes a vicious cycle. In my own opinion, I derive from here that we should learn to balance what we once had and currently still have. And of course, memories are definitely one of the most important things we bring through our entire life for as long as we live. Oopps... not sure if u guys get what I mean here. =X

yup... and I realised lately how vulnerable the relationships between human beings are.=X It's not that I am losing confidence, but it's just that the terrible experiences of break-ups in the relationships that u witness between your friends may inccur some form of unncessary worries even to ur own. But of course, we hope for the best yah? Guess, my dear dear and i won't be easily affected. In fact, the recent events to the friends around me, is a true reflection of reality. Guess, when one is in a relationship, some time is also needed to be adjusted between it and the other important aspects of our lives such as friendships. To be an all-rounder not only academically but more importantly in life...

Recently, I feel how much needed I am by my friends. (well, not trying to be BHB here). But I really feel fortunate to have forged such friendships with close bondings. Whereby, we can come to a stage of sharing things with each other openly. Having the trust and fatih in ur friend. Learning to lend a listening ear is really a pleasure. Don't u feel honoured when ur friends tell u how important u are to them?However, a perfectionist nature like me, may feel a little disappointed in myself when I find that I'm of not much help to my friend's situation. Well, but on a comforting note, guess it's gd enough when one is able to be there for ur love ones whenever they need u. And by giving them this moral support, it will definitely make a difference. And of course, it would even be better if we have good advices to share with them...

To say the truth, I do really love my JC life to a large extent. Setting aside all those stress and all... but the company that I have found here is something that I do enjoy and treasure alot. As I always say, I am amazed myself on the number of good or even close friends I manage to make in a period of 1 year. Friends as in ppl who u never fail to call out to daily whenever u meet them along the way in school. Friends who's smile do brighten up ur gloomy day. Friends who u can 'intimately' label as ur darlings, sweethearts and honey. Friends who are only a call away. Well, as all of us know, true friends do not come by so easily. Honestly, all of us have a choice in the type of friends we make. And trust me, u should never judge the book by it's cover. Who knows, the person who u first saw... gave u an impression of an 'ah lian or ah beng' or even ppl who possess the so-called qian bian/dao/cool face, may eventually become ur confidante one day. And for my case, I can prove how much this thinking holds true. It never hurts to take the first initiative. Cos, although u may not get a positive response from that stranger... at least u know u have tried right? As for me... I see it as a challenge. The more a person seems unapproachable, the more one wanna find out more about him/her. At least, it's because of this curosity to find out what he's really thinking under that cool front that he puts up, that allow another friendship to bloom and progress. Perhaps his/her strong front may not reflect the real side of him. yeah.. but of course, making friends shouldn't be something like a goal that we wanna acheive. It still comes with lots of effort,true feelings and even chemistry yeah.

Before ending, have u guys wondered what's the real side of u? Do u experience a split personality? Have u ever realised it or have the ppl around u observed abt it? Do all human beings have only 1 true side? If not... then are we being hypocrtical then? HmmmMmn... i really wonder. =)