i have a NEW ADDICTION, n thats exercising or rather dance aerobics. haha. sporty new me~ The muscle strain is becoming a treat instead of a torture each time. n its great to experience the lil improvements n results over a period of time. i wun give up!
Well... something has been weighing my mind v.often lately. Its clogging my tots that at times i feel like hiding in my comfort zone just like a hermit crab n wished that i could escape from problems FOREVER. i know its a total bullshit.
Does platonic friendships really exist? Many say yes. I try, or have tried... it's true for most but there are times when theres a tendency for us to cross the fine line between close 'good' frens n more. How come it takes forever for me to figure out whats going on in this person's mind? This is the first time i actually have difficulty reading someone. Its not as though i am an expert. But it's this curosity that keeps churning in me.
Its the hols... n lucky me, its a good time for me think things through. Theres so many problems and i am learning to handle all these responsibilites and committments. Its part and parcel of life as messed up as it may seem i guess. Although i always 'chant' that i believe in fate and our lives are pre-destined, but there are moments when i qns the things that are happening around me. BEcos i simply can't or need time to accept things or people the way they had evolved into.
I have made up my mind and guess its time i take the intiative to pull out because its really depressing to harp on dangerous issues so-called "platonic r/s"...
I had my share of indulgence but i realised that its not gonna take me far.
Hopefully i am strong-minded to stay by my choice even though many of the times it proves to no avail.
my greatest enemy is my mind. i figured it out. Its up to me to control how i wanna feel. And its time fz must stop trying to find excuses for herself.
brb.
...
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid...
Am i just a good friend?
