over and over again.

sometimes i just feel like crying, y e t it feels like i have lost the tears over the years and unlearned the way to release myself. i just dun know how to let go and be contented anymore.

it's nv enough.
i have come to realised that i'm really a greedy soul.
for success, for love, for friends, for money ( maybe not yet for now), for recognition,
for praises, for beauty, for attention, for lust n the list goes on.

there are so many things on my hand that i feel like breaking down at times. i can't emphasize more on how stressed up i feel. no one knows me better except myself.

i just can't wait for october to end. i can't.

i'm sorry if i start to bore u guys (if any) with all my entries.
i have lost the inspiration n motivation to blog blog blog.
but i am in the midst of setting up a new blog (yes 100% cfm this time, even the blog add has been registered)
i will release the add once i am satisified with the layout n all.

anyway the new blog will be a public one n i guess thats the way it's gonna be. mainly a photoblog n a record of my rants n happiness (?) about life.
yes. pictures will hopefully make up the bulk in order to make up for the lack of it in this blog.
nevertheless i will not close down this one, it will just be kept this way unless blogspot decides to pull a stunt on me.

there will still be private entries though. am thinking on how i can lock them up with those passwords protected html thgy just for certain entries.

anyway, i think i am becoming really long-winded here. thats precisely why i need a new home.
ciao.i'm gone.