been there.did tat.

Seriously... i have been mia-ing for a while. i am so sorry... i had a lot of things to settle. Firstly, there is a high possibility that i will be pursuing the degree of communications under the University of Monash. Its somethg that i always had the passion for. wOoo...I really look forward to the job of being a public relation officer as my career in the near future. Hmn... for the time being, i will be doing it locally... n see how things go as i am also allowed to fly over to Melborne to con't on-campus half way through the course. Well, i heard that its not gonna be an easy course but i will definitely give my best shot. Anyway, shall see how things goes first n the replies from the other unis as well...

Alright, life have been pretty the norm lately... nothing unusual except for the fact that MOS is becoming kinda disappointing recently. aw... the crowd n music are just not enough to 'turn-u-on'. haha. it will never be enough anyway.

hmn... dar.marshmellow just gave us a quiz ystd nite n i tot it was kinda accurate. haha. as usual... fz love doing such dumbo stuff when shes bored. ok... the quiz goes like this, "If u are lost in the forest, and u have 5 pets, which one would u choose to take along with u?"
a.)horse
b.)goat
c.)tiger
d.)peacok
e.)cow

Well, my answer's e tiger. haha. it indicates that my pride n dignity is the most important to me right now at this pt of my life. haha. I knew it all along that i am quite a prideful lady. There are hardly times when i will turn back after i make a decision. In my life, i choose to be a leader than a follower. However, i am a leader that listens but can be impulsive at times. I realised that i need a pacer by my side before i get a little carried away. It's scary to lose urself. I have been there, did that n understand how it feels.

(a.)horse-freedom, b.)goat-love,r/s d.)peacok-money e.)cow-career) =) just some ans. for u guys if anyone's interested in this quiz. haha

For man to undergo the process of discovering themselves is hectic,tedious n mentally torturing. Sometimes, the point of desperation can drive away all rationality he may possess. There are so many times when we are v.confident of what we want in life, but we cannot deny the fact that our expectations do change according to circumstances. We tend to run away from problems. We drown ourselves in other activites w/o realising the amt. of time we have wasted to salvage e situation. It is only when we are abt. to reach e dead end b4 we force ourselves to face e problem that has always been weighing our mind. It is this emotional baggage that man choose to carry. I am no different. In life, I can be confident in the things i engage in, but there are times when i am an escapist or simply a procastinator.. I hate it. I realised it. But i lack the courage to face it. This is when i am really fortunate to have friends n esp. my family members who are there to inject e harsh reality back into me. When i struggle, i choose to stay away. Yet all these are pure excuses. I am not weak..even if i may LOOK like a lady who needs to be sheltered half the time.

Ever since i had stepped into the working world... to be honest, besides e politics n e difficult tasks i handle daily, i think i can adapt to it better as compared to e schooling life. I am learning alot everyday n mingling around with the adults, my colleagues who have stepped into e society much earlier had made me mature alot. The topics of discussion we engage in are not mainly bitching, but it's also abt. how to view life in a different light as we proceed on to different stages. I do also pick up the basic steps of how the business of our company is being operated, the things that various departments handle.. for eg the accounts n human resource sides. All these are valuable knowledge n experiences that i can never pick up from the textbk.

Besides this, as i had typed in Joanne's response, a mature man learns to be responsible for his own actions. When we are confused, we do not give up everythg n feel that it is a form of relieving ourselves. In my own opinion, it's not a v.appropriate move. By doing so only means that u are making excuses that all the other factors in ur life are to be blamed for e problem u face except the latter. In the end, the root of the problem is still not cured. It's just like when u are addicted to a drug, u cannot entirely blame the person who tempts u to it... it all depends on urself to quit it for good.

Guess all man are selfish by nature. It's the best way to protect urself yet the best way to murder urself. A word of caution, pls do not commit in anythg u r not confident in. It's quite unforgivable... knowing e fact tat it's not a "fuck n go" kind of thg. *pardon my language* It may be tiring to take things in life serously all e time, but we should at least know how to weigh e consequences n take precautions so that we won't go overboard. The most painful thg is not when u burn ur own fingers... but when we hurt e ppl we love unintentionally. By then, it's all gone. Time will never turn back. History cannot be re-written. Regrets will only live on no matter how hard u try to ignore it...