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Oopps... i am finally back online. hoho. so sorry for not blogging constantly... but due to high demand, i will try to do it as often ok... hehehe.

I have been real busy lately. Just started on my 2nd job in the airport last week. I have decided to do admin instead due to some crop ups in the loreal job... i think they kinda scrapped the launch. i am not too sure what happened too. hah. Anyway, i was actually very pissed.. but luckily i had another job in hand in the airport! I am apparently doing ACCOUNTING!!! (omg, can u believe it? ME? doing accounting when figs. just hate me) haha. Yesh. u are not wrong! I have picked up alot of new things. Handling invoices, filing, entering accounts etc. Its a 5 day work wk job that begins with office hours. Basically, my company "Select Service Partners Pte" is in charge of franchising some of the eateries in the airport. It's an MNC lah. Although the job's somewhat demanding, but i am already trying to adapt to the 'execuetive' kind of lifestyle... muahaha.

Anyway... the colleagues there are pretty friendly, it's like a small family that's politics-free.... since i am only there for a wk... haha. Oh well, i was just abit surprised by one of the guys called Robert who took the initiative to 'get-to-know-me' better. haha. Ok... 1st day came the chinese peom he wrote for me, then the 2nd day.. he passed me his contact number. i was like so omg... i am dumbfounded... but anyway, i dun have that kind of 'sparky' feelings. However, no harm making more new friends. Just abit 'shocked' by his interesting actions judging from the fact that we only know each other for 2 freaking days. haha. I like his courage. It's great that i didn't intimidate him. ahaha.

Hoho... met my darling daryl for lunch break on wed. aw... i know u miss me. just admit it. haha. And i didn't forget u at all k. u still kinda have a place in my heart..so better make more effort b4 u get squeezed out by the rest of my dearies. haha.-evil grins-nah. Enjoyed the company, esp. with him feeding me info on the latest gossips on the shopfloor. Yesh... there's something i gotta admit. u look real good in long sleeves n tie. haha. shuai la. And that new hair colour of yours. haha. will just blow any gal away. happy? hehe.

Well well.. jokes aside... I met my darling Joanne and lan last sat finally!!! omg... do u know.. it's like coming to a year since we last met up TOGETHER since i was hospitalised back then?!! aw... miss everyone to bits. Anyway, we were bit*hing and doing lots of catching up about our lives n suitors *additional stuff wor* as usual. Some juicy gossips: Firstly, it's abt. how Joanne's ardent fan or rather suitor scare the nerves out of her. muahaha. Him kneeling down.. threatening her abt. failing physics S paper... singing a song for her.. omg... kinda of sweet la huh. But i dun like those kind of guys that force u to accept them under pressure. It's such an ultra turn-OFF. haha. and of course our dear lan that's easily disgusted by plain mushy words. mauhaha. As for me.. yah... i think i am into some kind of tao hua yun lately. dun ask me y... becos i can't explain this phenomenon as well. Shun talk about it. Too many scandals to raise. argh... someone save me! haha.

Besides this, we lunched at Suki Ramen at cine before catching DORM. (actually cine's like my current weekly hangout.haha. u may just bump into me)... Hmn... Dorm's not a v.scary show.. i will call it a touching one. hah. Oh well... after that we headed down to citylink to do some shopping before having dinner at Delifrance in suntec. woohoo.. but this isn't the highlight for the day! The main thing is the pictures we took... at the fountain, while having our meals etc. haha. Yesh. Lan's wish is finally fulfilled. All i wanted was a big fat hug when i see u guys. hehe. Easy to accomplish isn't it? hMMn....

Well.. i really loved the whole outing. It's definitely a pleasant one as we recall the past together. Time isn't strong enough to drift us apart... as long as we make the effort. =) muackz! to my fellow bridesmaid and wedding planner. hahahaha. yah. u guys plan it. bleah. *winks* But i still dun think i will be the first. so dun place such high hopes on me. haha. u may just lose e bet.

hmmn... sometimes i just can't deny my own special feelings although i wished i could jolly well ignore it. The main reason is becos i dun wanna lose the close friendship thats shared between us. I know that there's a huge price to pay. I had rather stay e way it is than to lose the person forever. Human beings have v.complex nature. They seem to always fall for someone even when they outright know that it's impossible to happen. Sometimes we have to succumb to the cruelty of reality. But i just can't stop myself from falling. i dun wanna lose myself. Neither do i wanna run away. It's not strong enough to use the word love... but at least like. i am always attracted to someone in a different crowd. y me.

To be honest... what's most important isn't about who or how many's after u. Yesh, u may just feel happy n more confident.. u may just love the attention but on the other hand u feel guilty of leading anybody on. Harmless flirting n whatsnot that doesn't seem as innocent as it is, just to get away from certain emptiness... Sometimes i am gulty of 'hurting' e ppl(not referring to my friends) who cares n loves me. Its always so contradicting. i dun wanna hurt anybody yet i am unable to put in the similar amt. of effort they have done for me. The ans. lies in the fact that probably my heart's not there.

I am always thrown into the webs of such emotions. And i hate this part of me. I dun wanna think too much. really dun want. But sometimes life just keeps pulling u back into reality... The more u struggle, the worse it gets.

My mind have this wonderful ability to multi-task. As i speak to a person or listen to him... my mind may have waadered off elsewhere thinking of other things. But on the other hand, i can still concentrate on the conversation. Even when i work... i can be both focused n dreamy. huh. amazing isn't it.

well... i wished i had the courage to shout out loud. But u guys know how prideful i am esp. in r/s. As i always say, guys have their ego, gals have their pride. Guess there's someone i like. i wished i was wrong.

ciao for now. brb for my babes n hunks who reads my bloggy. hhaha.