Brand new gal... tat's me.

Ahem~ *tada* Fz is back!!! hehe... *grins* Woo... so many things have happened lately that i do not even know where to start from. haha. Hmn... I'm finally back online. Have been too busy preparing for prelims and many other stuff. happy happy... love u all love my friends! =) Actually i wanted to blog a long time ago.. but simply had to wait for my thoughts to settle down first. trust me... u always need the right mood to do the right things. hah.

Okie... Firstly, I was one of the victims of the killer mosquitoes lately.. was down with dengue fever 7 days after my high fever. that means i was sick for about 2 weeks consecutively. This was the answer to my high fever and continuous nerve-racking headaches and migraine despite popping in panadols almost everyday over the week. Yup... Was breaking out into red rash with itchy palms when i went to school on that fateful day.(i.e. the tues before our sept hols). Hmmn... my face turned from a burning red apple in the morning to a pale zombie hours later. hah. Guessed my friends realised the change too. Even my teacher thought that i had sunburn while suntanning sia. oh pls... how can a sick person suntan?! haha. -_-"


oh well... this was the first time i took a pink form ever since i stepped into tpjc. Argh. i definitely embarrassed myself when i had to ask the admin. how i should fill up the form. gosh.. to the extent that she thought that i was a J1?! omg... hehe. Anyway, i headed to the doc. after that and had a blood test. The doc poke me 3 times sia. Cos he couldn't find my fine vains.=X argh. i went hm with 3 plasters all over my hand. hah. Worried and anxious i was... the results were out at nite. And there, i was another one contributing to the no. of dengue cases that's on the rise. Initially, i was abit shock. Cos i thought that dengue fever comes together with a FEVER?! and not a wk after that? And my platelets were way too low. The normal count is usually between 140 plus to 400 plus. And i was standing at 88. hah. Actually to begin with... i was quite stubborn at first.. to the extent that i kept repeatedly convince the rest at home confidently that i will be back after the hospital visit... and they need not make any arrangements that i would possibly be warded. Till my dad assured me that the possibility was very high. Argh.

And there i was in A and E. Immediately i was asked to be warded. Actually i attempted to ask the doc. if i could do w/o it. And she said i could do so if i sign the 'At my own risk' paper. haha. i didn't have a choice afterall. Yeah. While in hospital, i was admitted at 11 plus p.m. They warded me into a surgical ward cos there wasn't enough beds. hah. so there was poor fz... the only young blood among the ah-mas. wahha. But the most scary part came... there, was an old lady with life support machines all over lying beside me. According to the nurses, she was in an extremely critical condition. And that means she was going off sooner or later. I was definitely appalled to hear this news. However, fz gotta learn to be brave. Facing death is part and parcel of life... although it's never going to be easy. yup. At 1 plus a.m... i was awaken by a male nurse. hah. i though i was dreaming sia. He wanted to take me for an x-ray. omg... at that time my drip came off and there was blood was oozing from my hand onto the bed. How can fz be so blur enough to think that the blood stain didn't belong to hers?! wahaha. dumb la.. yah. but it's still an experience anyway. not to worry.. cos i'm a strong gal. Hmn... At 3 plus, i was still in the midst to lala-land when i was awaken by a commotion beside my bed. Gosh... that lady was going to pass on. This was the first time in my whole life to witness such a situation. All her children and grandchildren were around the bed. I even overheard the last words they exchanged. Can u believe how heart-breaking it is? As a stranger, i could already feel the pain. The atmosphere was definitely solemn... the defeaning silence at that very moment was simply too much for one to take. Yup... and thank God i had the courage to be there alone...

Hmn.. the next day, i had my blood tests taken throughout the day, cos the first 3 samples were broken when it arrived at the lab. gosh... how can they allow such a thing to happen eh?! The mosquitoe has already taken enough of my blood. haha. And there... as usual, the needles and all. hmn... but i'm a good patient k. And i will bear the pain and co-operate... cos i can't wait to get out of that horrible place. haha. =) Anyway, i was also labelled the CRIB(Completely Rest In Bed!) patient. According to the nurses... it was an order from the doctor. And so... i was also on drip to hydrate myself. And no injections or tooth brushing. Any bristle or other things that can cause me to bleed. Cos for dengue patients... with their low platelets, they have to be treated with extreme care. And they really mean it. I was almost being transformed into a tofu. haha. No doing this and that. No eating potato chips cos it may just cut my tongue and cause me to bleed?! wahaha... well.. that's what the nurse said. Guessed it's because i didn't offer her any. haha. -_-" whatever... And with low platelets... there's a tendency for u to collapse and faint plus internal bleeding which can be fatal. Yup yup... anyway.. i'm on a fragile mode then. I was followed everywhere i went. And hopefully it's the 1st and last time they put me on a wheelchair esp. when i told them that i could walk... haha. *diao*

Woo... but i wasn't so lonely afterall... except for the fact that my mind was so disturbed about the revision for the prelims... argh. anyway... received loads of smses from my lovely friends and i had my mp3 with me. At noon, came my first batch of visitors. So thoughtful of them sia. Beloved, li shan and glenn. they bought a sweet bouquet of roses and a pineapple. I'm so touched lah! According to glenn... after being down on my luck thrice... the pineapple is a symbol of gd luck and a new beginning. wahaha... guess it must be this auspicious thing that aid in my speedy recovery. haha. Yeah... after that by nite... more friends came in. My beloved yt, ber ber, pq dar brought in choc jelly beans and a stalk of sunflower to cheer me up. so sweet of them yeah. And also my other classmates with beautiful cards and friends. woo... really appreciate it yeah. Elaine came in at 9 plus despite the fact tt the vising hours were over. haha. guess what?! they bought a hello kitty pencil case for me. haha. so nice of them. And i am really grateful for the amount of concern my fantastic classmates had showered on me... it is felt deep in my heart. thks lots lots... =)

The next day... by noon... came Xin Lan...Joanne(my hao jie meis!), Keith, Benjamin..:) and my precious pri.sch friends.(the next batch! hehe...) I didn't expect them to come ... cos i only informed dar and dear. woo. Initally, they wanted to come down to the hospital to watch the superstar finals with me ya. haha. so cute~ but we had our mini gathering my house instead. In times of need... u really know who ur real friends are. And w/o them... i won't be who i am today. That's something i have to always emphasize. yeah... And they are so so so important to me. My "external family" as i always say. hehe. the support, strength and infinite love they have given... seriously, no words can describe how touched i am. Despite my downs... i feel blessed. Cos i didn't lose anything. but i have stepped into LIFE. And i know it's only the beginning yeah. hmmn... can't wait to see what awaits the future. :)

On the day of discharge... Benedict, yat chun and joelson were there too. haha... so cute to leave the hospital with a group of friends sia. Anyway thanks alot for coming down yeah. And dun worry.. i'm fine yeah. haha. Was really touched when xin lan, beloved and fizah told me how worried they were when they received the news. They called me on the hp straightaway sia. hee.

Throughout the short stay in the hospital, it was definitely a new experience and to witness the operation in the wards. I managed to build a good repore with the nurses there too yeah. And really thk them for their tender care and attention. And guess i have an affinity with the ppl there?! haha... cos my mum received some compliments abt. me from the relatives of the patients. Hmmmn... to think abt. it... i didn't do anything to please them leh?! haha. okie lah... i am going to sound BHB. But it's good to give urself a pat on ur shoulder at times. hhaha. -_-X

oh yah... another good news for me... after all these 3 ordeals within one month, Fz had lost abt 1kg plus. haha. not much of an accomplishment... but just a step closer to my ideal weight. ahaha.

Anyway, through this stay in the hospital... the gifts and flowers were not the main thing. But most importantly is the realisation of how much i am truely being loved. And i just wanna say that i love u all too. =)i realised the fine line between life and death... and how much we should really value each other everyday. yeah. ultimately, we shld live a life with no regrets. Life is really fragile and we can never predict what's gonna happen next. If i could, i hope that i can spent the best of every moment in my life achieving my dreams and enjoying life with all my love ones. To me, a life with love, passion and goals is definitely a huge driving force... something i wanna work towards! :)

Here's a poem with a bouquet of roses frm my close friend :

I used to think my friends were true,
But the was before I met you,
Friends were people with whom I could play
But a friend means more to me today.

With you, I found a friend who is real,
With you, my heart, I can reveal.
We share laughter, we can share tears,
This kind of friendship would last throughout our years!

This is what I have been searching for,
All the time when I wanted more.
I've been blessed with this friend I love
Who shares with me love from above!

This poem has sent the tear glands of sentimental fz working. i am so touched. really appreciate it alot and would wanna share it with all of ya. =) Although u will not read this, but i just wanna say that u will always be my treasured one. 6 years and many more to come... :)

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Hmmn... okie dokey, after the dengue thingy... it's sept hols. Well, i can only say that this sept hols was definitely filled with the stress and pressure before the exams. haha. But i would say the it was spent in a rather unique way. u can always enjoy studying and still have leisure when u do so with ur friends. yeah!

On Monday nite, swatch, king, dear and dar stayed overnite at my place. It's the first overnite study attempt. hehe. really fun and quite successful though. It started at 9 plus before the guys arrived by midnite. aiyo~. haha.As usual, we had set ourselves breaks in between and the most hilarious one was at 3a.m. Now... i know when's the time all of us will feel high. wahahaa. We started snacking and tapping on our drinks. As we crapped over the dining table and joked all sorts of nonsense. wahaha. gosh... it's so fun!!! Our 'insider' joke about horses, camels and squids and whatsnot?! Oh yah... pq.dar's syllabus on immunity?! hahaha. ok lah... shun give too much details. shall leave u guys to think. hehe.

After that by morning, all of us were like dead logs. dar, dear and i fell asleep on the mattresses in the lving room and had western breakfast by beloved ah tes after that. haha. Then dar and i joined dear to shop for a while after her remedial... Hmmn... deinitely the most memorable day out of my sept hols. :)
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Oh yah..here's the song my friend dedicated,

That's what friends are for

And I, never thought I'd feel this way
And as far as I'm concerned
I'm glad I got the chance to say
That I do believe I love you
And if, I should ever go away
Well then close your eyes and try
To feel the way we do today
And then if you can remember
Keep smiling, keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
For/In good times and/in bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for
Well you came and opened me
And now there's so much more I see
And so by the way I thank you
And then, for the times when we're apart
Well then close your eyes and know
These words are coming from my hearts
And then if you can remember
Keep smiling, keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
For/In good times and/in bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

thks alot...:)
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okie... here's finally the survey my jc.dear requested for me to do. haha.:)

Seven things that scare me

1. losing any of my love ones

2. loneliness/voidness

3. losing my memories

4. insecurity

5. not be able to achieve my dreams and goals

6. no husband and kids?!

7. ill health of myself n e ppl i love



Seven things I like the most
(in no particular order...)
1. family

2. friends

3. love

4. reflecting

5. music

6. cash

7. shopping



Seven important things in my room

1. comp

2. bolster

3. wardrobe

4. hp

5. accessories

6. music player

7. pretty cards and pictures of my friends


Seven random facts about me

1. sentimental

2. dreamy

3. romantic

4. emotional

5. soft-hearted but strong... contradicting eh?

6. vain

7. sociable



Seven things I plan to do before I die

1. fulfill all my commitments n dreams

2. travel around the world

3. tell my friends n family n love one tt i really do treasure n love them alot

4. to recall back all my memories

5. live e high life of branded goods prestige n glamour

6. complete my education route tt i've set for myself

7. look through my photo albums and remember the faces of each and eveyone


Seven things I can do

1. love

2. lend a listening ear to a friend in need

3. dream

4. shop

5. to be emotionally-attached

6. be humorous

7. appreciate and admire the beautiful things in life

Seven things I can't do

1. hurt the ones i love

2. betray myself

3. to forgive and forget easily

4. tolerate backstabbing or parasites

5. to commit in an unreciprocated love

6. give up everything i have now and do whatever i want to

7. quit studying

Seven things I say the most

1. and so?

2. wHatever...

3. do u think i care?

4. arh huh?

5. omg...

6. crazy ah..

7. aha ha ha... am i suppose to laugh?!


Seven celebs that I admire
( dun really have any in mind now ...)

Anybody can do this quiz... haha:)


Oh... that's all folks for this super long entry. happy reading yeah! And i'll be back for more updates right after the exams. I have SO many plans!! hehe... muack! tc...thks guys for everything u have done.