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I realised that i need the people around me to be truly happy before I taste the true fruit of joy... :) Making people happy, makes me happy.

BUT

i haven't been really happy. Wrong. I am unhappy. To be honest, i once thought that I'm on the verge of depression. I think I am severely stressed and overloaded. Its only the 2nd week since the 2nd yr begun. Taking things seriously in life is probably one of the deadly shortcomings of my character. Yet it can be a boon or bane. My timetable is horribly disgusting. I am taken as a superwoman.

There was once I felt like fainting in the train just a few days ago. Oh boy. I am not exaggerating. It kinda freaked myself out a little. The lack of rest, neverending intensive deadlines and almost inexistent social life is taking its toll of me. How am i gonna lasts for another 2 years or so?

And my immune system is completely unco-operative. This is the 5th time i have visited the doctor in 3 months. Omg. I am sick of being sick and sick of taking antibiotics etc. Someone actually commented that the number of times I am sick during this period of time is not even equivalent to another person's in a year. ahhhh. ok. i shall stop indulging in self-pity. But i am more responsible for my health now as compared to b4. However, it seems to be deteriorating silently.

I hafta attend the important grad function tmr; having to give my speech and attend the interview...YET my voice is barely normal. More hoarse than usual. I guess i'll just baaa...baa... on the stage tmr like a sheep. HAHA.

I declare myself a full time mugger. Interested to know about my status? *drum rolls*.......... Ms.Leong is OFFICIALLY ATTACHED to her darling....BOOKS.

Thanks.

I am trying my best to relax. Yet my conscience tells me otherwise. I need some time to gain back the momentum i guess. In fact, no one's stressing me. I'm the murderer of myself. blah.