She has never been so sure of her feelings. yesh. she's gotta admit that she misses him quite a fair bit. Although they will meet in less than 12 hours, but it seems like its impossible for them to walk into each other's life. Only he can make the optimistic gal more pessismistic than ever. hmmn.. guess feelings can't bring anyone far.. only under the right circumstances and mindset then it can lead to anything. All she can do now is to be by his side and wished he was happier. She wished she was transformed into a genie that has the power to read his mind off that easily. There are too many obstacles and emotional barriers for them.. esp. him. It takes time for him to get over death. Its normal n if only he knew that she would always be there... is it mutual? she rather treat it as not. she dun wanna get hurt.
-simply lost-

and yesh.. i met dear lastnite and today. we did our bitching session, n ended up as muggers at our oh-so-fav. nlb. misses dear.. and thks for always being such a wonderful bestie! u will always have me as ur listener too. =)

On fri nite, i went clubbing at whynot. the music was pretty good. the drag was rather hilarious as they were celebrating everyone's bday in the house. No sex equals to wasting ur life away?? haha. damn funny man. And it was an eye-opener to some of my friends. A good chance to prove how SUPER STRAIGHT and intimidated they were. haha. But the ppl there are nice and pretty fun-loving yeah. i was dancing the whole nite thru.. as usual. haha. But i just didn't really let go too much... maybe i have too many tots clogging my mind.

And i have been feeling quite unwell lately. i can be super duper high at one moment and the next minute, fz feels so distracted n sick. all i lack is sleep n rest i think. But i have been sleeping alot already.. guess it must be the irregular hours... heehee.

ok.. back to mugging time. brb for more updates. i am sick of rumours. y am i always an innocent victim of all these shitty crap? there are many other better gals who fit the bill... so can those ppl just let fz off?! bleah. i sincerely appreciate compliments but simple praises doesn't mean that theres more to it right... haiz... childish ppl. lala.