hmmn.. today and tmr's my off day~ yeah. Gonna go down to MOS tonite... it's the candy floss retro Ladies nite?! haha. wanna check it out since i heard alot of compliments about the place. haha. Woohoo.. i am all so excited! "i like it movin movin~" ;P hahaha. Hmn... going to meet dear after work and also my new colleagues. hehe. =)
Anyway, i received a package today. It's definitely a pleasant surprise! it's a belated xmas present( an elegant butterfly ring) n a v.pretty card! oh my... i am so so so touched. Seriously, i didn't expect this to come. And it's so sweet of my friend. This special friend never fails to be there for me...
" I don't really know what to say... but there's one thing i can promise you.. and that is i will always stand by you and be there for you." *my tears welling up le* aw... (an extract from the card)=)
This really sets me thinking... seriously, i think i am guilty of neglecting a few of the love ones around me. i am experiencing a whole load of mix feelings. It's difficult to distribute your time equally with everyone. And there's always a tendency for us to spend more time with those that we usually hang out with. However, i am so glad that i have many friends who always do take the initiative to keep-in-touch wih me.. more than i would do prior to my busy schedules and activities. Hmn.. i am feeling so bad. Perhaps... distance makes the heart fonder?! i dun wanna give the wrong impression to some of the dear friends around me that i have forgotten about them le. Yup...Seriously, i do miss alot of ppl... but all of us are growing up, and entering a different stage of life. Perhaps, some things may not be the same as before... but there's somethg that i can reassure them abt... and that is, even though there are new ppl walking into my life each day... u guys will never be forgotten and will always have the same place rooted in my heart as b4. well.. my heart will just keep expanding. haha. If u happen to bump into me on the streets one day, must remember to say hi la. Sometimes fz's abit blur... she most prob didn't see ya. haha. Dun end up msging me.. saying that u saw me and i dao ya. hehe. =)
hmn... my mind's in a whirl lately... yesh! the new year has arrived! And it's gonna be a new beginning yeah. But somehow my mind's kindof rejecting some new changes. For instance, i am really gonna blend into the working world where almost all hyprocrites live n survive. Everything's so fake. Sometimes, u have to really depend completely on your judging ability and analysing power to decipher between the angel n devil. In the workforce, everyone stands as an individual and they protect their ricebowls just the way mother hens protect their eggs. Backstabbing, bitching around is just a common phase... And the key is to try n play the role of a by-stander. However, there's also a risk of being the neutral party each time... u never know when u will be dragged down as well. That's why we must always be on our toes and learn to adapt to the changing situations. Well... it's like a battlefeild with ever changing strategies. Know when's the right time to stand up for urself n when's the time to close one eye towards certain things. yup yup.
Oh well.. this is life. Life can be summarised into one word...'undefined'. It's filled with ambiguity n there are certain things that we will never understand. Perhaps... ignorance is really a bliss. But how far can u be ignorant as u grow wiser each time u mature? is that considered ignorance... or simply just taking up e role of an escapist? hmmn....perhaps we should just consider about things that are happening now, since our future is currently out of reach n unpredictable. It's unrealistic to think too far.. but goals are simply ur guide towards life. Well, we can never stop worrying about ourselves n what the ppl around us are thinking... yup. so just keep things simple bah.. esp. for ppl like me who have the tendency to have complicated thoughts at times. haha. Yah... it was U who reminded me. =)
hmmn... lately, i realised that many of my friends made simliar comments about me. Well.. they said that i am their kai xin guo(in english.. as in a person that brings happiness to them). Hmn.. honoured to receive such a compliment. Well... i am smiling because of you ya? haha. Of course they know the other side of me as well. hee. It's not v.easy to know me thoroughly inside out, unless we know each other for many years. Well, fz is still in the midst of discovering herself. Hopefully, u all can adapt to the changes as well. haha. For instance for ppl like beloved, jc.dear,dar, ber, b, ben, half-pie, wk, zl... i dun even have to say a word... and they can just simply read off my mind. This is truely amazing. Perhaps, if i simply raise my eyebrow, they will get what i am thinking, haha. Hmn.. this is so called telepathy?! hah.=P
yup.. received a super cute msg from clement this morning. He's gonna enter ns tmr le... although he may not msg me as often, but he will still send gdnite msgs. omg... it so sweet la. haha. Despite the fact that i didn't keep closely in touch with him.. but i can feel that he still treasures me as a gd friend... well, pls remain the way u r k! I will keep ya in my tots. And he promised that he will come out from ns as a better man! haha. hmmn...i have faith in ya. Do take good care!*hUgs* =)
well...i will be back with more updates...
"...How am I ever gonna get rid of these blues
Baby I'm so lonely all the time
Everywhere I go I get so confused
You're the only thing that's on my mind
Oh my beds so cold at night and I miss you more each day
Only you can make it right no I'm not too proud to say..."
