sayonara 2004~

Hmn... shall start this entry on a solemn note. As we know, due to the recent tsunamis that had affected many regions, in particular Asia... many lives were lost. The numbers are still soaring sky high. Totally unbelievable that the year will end somewhat tragically. Well, this catastrophy is not under the control of any men and guessed all these are just destined to happen. Through this heart-wrenching event, we had managed to see how compassionate our people are. I believe that their generosity have managed to reach out to many victims out there. Our hearts go out to all these unfortunate victims. We feel blessed that Singapore is not really affected. And we will remember them in our prayers.

yup... on a lighter note, I am gonna do a mini wrap-up on my journey this year. haha, just a short one to note down my flow of thoughts and emotions. Well, 2004 is closing to it's end in about an hour's time or so. I have my piece to say. Do you?

Hmn... this year can be considered as a rather 'choppy' year for me. Just like the surging waves of the sea or like a roller coaster ride. Full of ups and downs, and I think this is pratically the case for most of us out there. I really hope that next year will be a much more peaceful, smoother and brighter year. At times, too much unforseen circumstances or impending events are simply too torturing to one, mentally and physically. I foresee a much more demanding 2005, especially with regards to the approaching As. The year will definitely fly past quickly and guessed there is not much time left for us to waste. We can never turn back time... there is no time for regrets... so we can only try to make the best use of the amount of time we have left. As the saying goes, " The only thing we cannot recycle is wasted time"... very true indeed~. And I this that this is especially applicable to me. Time management can be a great challenge. Men always aims for the best out of everything, and therefore our pirorities will have to be at work.

Well, this year is somewhat colourful too. As far as it is... I did enjoy my JC1 life to a certain extent. It was much beyond my expectations. All the assumptions before I entered JC were quite subjective though. I heard things about the kind of Hi-Bye friends you will make in JC. People who u will probably only see for 2 years. Perhaps, they will merely be acquaintances. However true it is... I believed that I have forged quite a few new and close friendships. It's really amazing how this 8 months or so have brought all of us so closely together. And I feel really lucky and glad to know these people. In particular, I am not only referring to a few of my clasmates but also my chess clubs peeps and CO friends. I really feel bonded to them. Like a whole big family. Incredible isn't it? I find it hard to believe too...

Yup yup... as I am fortunate enough to meet new friends each time, I will still remember my childhood friends and all those old friendships that we had weaved. Well, they are still as important to me and they are irreplacable. However, at times, due to our various individual activities and conflicting timetables.. it's pretty hard for all our old friends to meet out together. At times, I feel that I have probably neglected some of them... and I am quite sorry about that. well... we still have our whole life to carry on this friendship... and guess that physical distance doesn't really matter. What's most important is that all of us are still as close at heart.

Moving on to academically wise... This year have been a one that is filled with struggles. Nothing less than that of the O's, in fact even more. There are many expectations set for us, and all of us are been pushed along. It's definitely a very stressful task, learning how to cope well and to also be more independant. Learning how to be more resourceful and being organised will probably be the key-factor here. Yup... Hopefully things will perform much better next year. A crucial hurdle... our As! A turning point for our lives... and our future~

Regarding my family... I think that each family will definitely have their own problems that are never-ending. It seems that these persisting problems can cause all of us to feel so pressurised at times. Sometimes, you feel as though you have reached a saturation point whereby you would really like to let out all your emotions. However, finding the right person to be your listening ear is most crucial. Furthermore, at times, probably there is no point crying... maybe thinking of a way to salvage matters will be better. Hmn... this year haven't been a really good one for my family too. I have experienced a time whereby my dad had a close shave between life and death. Have you? Do you know how traumatising it is? It was extremely terrible. For me to learn how to bottle up my worries, emotions, anxiety and sadnesss as I go to school each time, wasn't a really easy task though. However, I had to stay strong, because I do not hope that all these emotions will affect my studies at all. Fortunately, I have a group of supportive friends around me. They were my moral support during that period of time. As an only child, I have no siblings to be my source of strength. I am not trying to self-pity here... but just to describe the mixed feelings that I was going through then. Luckily, dad's safely back... however, check-ups are still required. What lies beneath still remains unclear.

Besides that, my grandma was also admitted into CGH a month back due to an extremely high blood pressure. Yup... it was pretty worrying though as she is already 92. Fortunately, she is still doing fine back at home. As compared to many old people out there.. I would consider her's a lucky case.

yeah... having 2 family members admitting into hospital twice each, is something that is really unexpected and probably my first encounter with such events. Well, I will treat it as an exposure and guess I can learn to be stronger through these experiences.

Yup yup.. hehe... regarding personal life wise... such as relationships and emotions. Well, I would say that it all started off pretty confusing.. and I was also caught in a whirl. However, I have met this special one. Thanks dear for being there for me. I believe that there will be many more tests coming up and hopefully we will be able to pull through. yeah... guess I have also learned that love and trust do play an important role in a relationship. yup...

ok... to end this last entry for 2004, I would like to wish everyone out there... all my ckps6A family, dearS, darlingS, beloved, sweethearts, honey, dar dar.... etc. A very happy 2005. May God Bless all of you! May all your wishes come true and rememeber to take care of your health k. Love all of you lots! And thanks guys for everything~

Now... loading year 2005 in 45 minutes time... Goodbye 2004! =)