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i just realised that i am a lil insecure... weird to hear this from my mouth huh? bleah...i am not joking. cos i dun know y i am pretty sensitive to ppl's comments about me... esp. if words are twisted n put into my mouth once again. i cannot tolerate being misunderstood... so yup yup..although the rumour is passe..like last season's 'hot crap' but it came back haunting me when someone randomly tried to clarify his hearsays today...

if i am really so confident that i dun need ppl to reassure me.. then y am i so affected?? hmn.. is it a form of me being defensive over the barrier of wall i had 'built' to protect my inner me? bleah... shall try not to allow my bewildered tots overwhelm me...

I guess its hard to avoid both compliments or less positive comments as a person becomes more high profile as the day passes... esp. in the participation of corporate video ad and the debate thingy... its as though i am ONE of the new faces on the block to be noticed. Suddenly, i seem to know almost any other lecturer or staff who will smile to me simply becos they recognise dumb fz... n vice versa. bleah. haha.

anyway.. i finally admit to myself that i am a person that loves attention and having the spotlight on me most of the time. Is tis a sign of me being too competitive, self-demanding or maybe an over-achiever... seee..i am thinking too much again. But maybe its true.

i feel like a celebrity on her fan pg and in the tabloid... now i know that it sux, cos u lose some personal space...i

i feel like crying out loud...but i dun know whats holding me back.

Anyway.. i wish for some enlightenment... god help me!!
haiz.

okie..these are some pics taken on vday..with our potluck party n chocolate cake smashing n whatsnot.. all the rubbish la. n mass com students can never stop talking about SEX. They all contain raging hormones; visually, mentally n whatever u can think of. i wonder how we can link it to our lecture EVERY lesson... haha. but oh well... its fun anyway. Lets just spice thgs up!

n i 'bumped' into someone on vday. yupp...no details shall be disclosed. -looks around-


brb rite b4 chinese new year... pls stay tune! hee.