Reality

*aHem* Okie... as promised, I'll provide my answer to the qns from my last entry. In fact, after thinking about it... I have come to a conclusion that my heart is made of assorted materials (not assorted flavours... haha) and there's no specific one which I can pick to represent it. I feel that one's heart changes accordingly to the environment... to the people around u~ Just like a chameleon which changes it's colour to bland into it's surroundings.

If you have ever realised... we treat the people around us differently. There's a high tendency for us to reciprocate to them the way they have treated us. It's not an issue of being calculative but it's something that comes naturally.(something that cannot be measured by any instrument) Anyway... all these are based solely on how we feel about this person and whether he/she is worth our effort... therefore it's a matter of trusting your own judgement.

In life... we don't usually rank our friends. However... we probably choose to categorise them accordingly. E.g : Best Friends... close friends... Hi-bye friends...childhood friends etc. We do not have a choice to choose the ppl we meet everyday, but we have a choice to classify them and to choose the ones we wanna hang out with.

Every friend u meet in ur lifetime is important.. whether they are of a good or bad influence. In the process we learn from each other's experiences and mistakes. However... at times, the sad thing is, when u feel that the person that's considered as one of those that u treasure most or is important to u... may not be feeling likewise about u.

Yup... some may say that it's alright when such a situation occurs because as long as you treasure that special one... it's already a privillege. But, have you ever thought that u have chose to think in this way ...just to console or deceive yourself?Is anyone that big-hearted to this extent in the first place? Maybe there are... but few~ .Because we are all human beings and in relationships... we expect it to be a 2-way thing. It shouldn't be a case whereby one party is always the giving one and the other... maybe taking for granted at times. Yesh.. it's easier to be said than done...

Whatever it is... matters of the heart are always not easily handled. Because some things can be said while some things are harder to be put into words. Thus the only way out is to bottle up these feelings and to pretend that nothing's happening... To wait for the time to come, whereby u are ready to straighten out your thoughts.

I believe I'm not the only one feeling this way... probably all these are common feelings experienced by many out there too~ However... there's a will, there's a way. Maybe we should just try to focus on more important things at the moment and the rest will gradually unwrap itself.

Excuses maybe something that we always formulate in order to run away from the truth. But I believe all these are just human nature,that's already in our mindset. However, we may out grow it one day... as we mature,we tend to understand the truths we face in life.... and to be able to accept them better.

when one's heart-broken... let time heal it... hopefully it will~