A beautiful facade

Many strangers had walked in and out of my life before. Some were simply not meant to be, few left a lasting impression. But there were only 2 that changed my perspective...probably thats what u call love...

Moral of the story: saviour every moment before u realise that its gone.

whatever it is, i guess i have no regrets in the choices i make ultimately because i have learned to be more realistic and down-to-earth.

Gonna turn twenty this yr... i dun have any time for lala land kinda stuff. Its mentally draining and i have more important goals to accomplish. Not trying to be selfish, but maybe this is a good age for us to explore our ambitions and build a stepping stone in preparation for a bright future awaiting us.

this is what i really want.

As much as i think that companionship is extremely important, but considering about the price to pay n the sacrifices...i'll leave it to nature.

i just wanna lead a normal life. Just wanna be happy... i know that its all in the mind. Our mind controls our mood swings. So fz had better maintain/increase the will power to sustain everything she already has.

i'm not that strong as i may seem. Sometimes i'm just v.fatigue from the whirl of problems revolving around me. Family, academic demands and whatsnot. i'm just good at masking it.

I'm not that naive/silly..its just that i choose to close one eye at times as long as i know that it will do me some good.

I'm not just a pretty vase as some may jokingly comment. mind u i have brains... n am glad that its proven!

I'm pretty confident...but there are no doubts that i do have insecure days just like any normal person do.

I may appear bubbly..but thats probably how i wanna make ppl around me happy.

I may appear quiet when my assignment deadlines are drawing near..but thats when the stress gets on my nerve and just dun wanna face it.

I may appear optimistic...but this will probably account for only half the time..while the remaining leaves me in denial.

I may appear loud and talkative..but thats when the voidness gets the most out of me...

I may smile and laugh 3/4 of the time...but out of these times, there are moments i just wanna breakdown and be a crybaby.

how well does anyone understand me?

guess only i know myself best...