hmn... my grandma's in hospital AGAIN... this time it really freak the max out of fz, leaving me totally speechless. I was in a state of shock then. I recalled how helpless i was as i dialled for the ambulance. Traumatised n anxious especially when my dad called back from the A & E to inform me that things didnt look too good for her n he requested for all of us to rush down immediately. Omg. i really tot that i'm gonna lose her for good this time round. Thank God... for granting her more time.

Alrite... so i have been rushing all over the place these days. I am just fed up over some unreasonable ppl which i find too redundant to mention. I realised how much i love freedom these days.. that i dislike any possessive intentions by some ppl. But of cos not referring to my family or any of u.. my beloved frens who haf access to this blog~ hee. So no worries yeah.

Its weird if i say tis.. i believe 3/4 of u will doubt this. pls dun. muahaha. i realised that i have kinda lost the clubbing spirit/craze lately. Its a new change in me arh? haha. The tot is there... but i dun seem to have the motivation to do so. Hmn... is this a sign of growing up? hehee. However, i still dun mind grooving to the beats of the hottest music in town la. haha. -_-#

I am learning to shower more attention towards my family n i believe that i will try my best to seize every opportunity to be more dedicated. Something just struck me on how important it is for me to learn to carry responsibilities n stop taking advantage of the fact that i am still young n schooling. Cos i jolly well know that i'm not a kid anymore. Hmmn.. i used to spend majority of my time with my frens.. to the extent of forgoing family gatherings. ahem.... looks like the constant reflection is doing some gd on the attitude n priorities of fz. hehee

anyway... i will update soon. There are tons of activities to attend next wk. hmn. n i think i will turn up for the chess club chalet too. time to catch up as well. i miss alot of ppl...yeah.. ALOT. haiz.

Thanks for all the encouragement my dear frens! tomorrow will be a better day. i hope.

neither here nor there. thats it.