hohoh... looks like i have pretty much responses regarding my entry on lust. ahaha. well, my verdict for NOW is still lust is better than love. A r/s that's built mainly on lust will definitely expire quickly, but it at least leaves better memories with minimal heartbreaks. (some of u may think that i have a twisted mind. haha. perhaps?)

okk... basically my life's pretty screwed up here n there, bits and pieces lately. I am either floating around the house or being more spastic than usual with my friends. That's all i did this week! Rather aimless huh. I just feel that i have wasted alot of time. All checked. Bad temper, lost of appetite, feeling pointless, sleepless nites etc. All the symptoms for depression. hah. Or am i just on the verge of an emotional breakdown?! Under that smiley face of mine are tons and loads of worries and neverending qns. It seems that i am always the live wire that's trying to spice things up every outing... so no matter what, i will never allow my mood to affect the rest of my buds. yeah. However, at home is the time where i can just sulk n sulk n pick on every single thing that is out of place. aiyah. ok... i dun know where is this getting to. i just need a complete break. a time out (personally, i dislike this term). Or perhaps i am just an escapist. i know that right from the start... but i chose to live in denial. Pretty foolish i guess. "When u Least expect = Least disappointment." haha. alright. not as if i am having a sad life. Actually, my life's satisfactory, but i want more than the way it is.

i am in deep shit cos i am kinda being 'stalked' lately. It's impossible to bear any feelings that's so called 'more than friends' for an acquaintance who barely saw me twice! Sometimes, i realised that my friendly nature may unknowingly lead a person on. And i am really very very apologetic about that. This is perhaps a quality in me that rules both positively and negatively. To begin with, i have no intentions to hurt anyone esp. after having a good taste of it. (nope, no one is responsible for how i feel. it lies in the choice i make) However, the truth is, i am imperfect.(No one's perfect anyway) But maybe i am perfect in the eyes of my friends who simply know me for who i am. haha. not as if they have a choice. hehe... Actually, i am quite pampered by them. haha. oh well. =)



Truly Madly Deeply - Savage Garden


I'll be your dream, I'll be your wish, I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope, I'll be your love, be everything that you need
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly Madly Deeply Do

I will be strong, I will be faithful
Coz I'm counting on
A new beginning, a reason for living, a deeper meaning yeah

I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I wanna lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

And when the stars are shining brightly in the velvet sky
I'll make a wish send it to heaven, and make you want to cry
The tears of joy for all the pleasure in the certainty
That we're surrounded by the comfort and protection of
The highest powers, in lonely hours
The tears devour you

I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I wanna lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

Oh can you see it baby?
You don't have to close your eyes, coz it's standing right before you
All that you need will surely come

I'll be your dream, I'll be your wish, I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope, I'll be your love, be everything that you need
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly Madly Deeply Do

I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I wanna lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I wanna live like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me


All thanks to my dear daryl who burnt this song for me. Apparently i am in love with this song. haha.

*And pls stop saying that i have a sexy voice. haha. It sounds more like a hoarse voice. i think i should amend my voicemail before i attract more butterflies n bees and whatsnot... according to lan lan. wahaha.